(OOC) Memory 7: learning to wield Essence

Form: tiny seed, plant to view, will eventually grow into your favorite flower

( ad astra per aspera )

EFFECTS/WHAT HE LEARNED:

* He couldn't use Essence before Deilannis. Because he doesn't have a Reserve, apparently? Was that what he was worried about with Wirr and Asha?
* He needs to drain Essence from his surroundings to survive. Which explains...a lot of things, really. And is worrying. But he'll be able to feel it now that he knows what he's looking for.
* Using Essence was something he'd dreamed of for a long time, and actually doing it felt amazing.
* He's a good student; phenomenally good, apparently. Using kan is as natural for him as breathing.
* The idea of killing with his energy drain makes his skin crawl in the memory, but strangely, it doesn't anymore. That's worrying too.
* He knows he got safely back to his own time somehow, since he met up with his party again, but apparently it wasn't easy.
* Apparently he learns how to shapeshift at some point, but it's dangerous and ill-advised. So is, apparently, mind control -- which was apparently only a rumor even when the Augurs still ruled (???).
* +50 self-confidence, especially about his powers
* +10 concern about his personal metaphysics, and relief that he built the enhancement he did into his coat